Baby Shower #1

While we were down in TX for our wonderful spring break we had a fun little shower for Ms. Jillian Grace.  It was amazing!  My cousin counted 27 people in attendance and we had a great time.  We played games, laughed, at great cake, wonderful punch, and got lots of good stuff.  

Because Garon and I were traveling we considered this a gift card/diaper shower and it was amazing! I tried to make a little collage but I couldn't figure out how to do it so you get a slide show instead.  Hope you enjoy! :)

Spring Break 2010

I had a few moments this evening so I decided to make some changes to the blog.

Garon and I are down in TX for Spring Break and we are enjoying ourselves. Garon was able to have his craw-fish for the first time in about 2 years, lets just say he is LOVING LIFE today! :)

Here are a few pictures of the event. Lets just say...Laura had NONE of the MUD BUGS!!! They stink, they look gross, and I just have no desire. Garon LOVES everything about it, the prepping, the cooking, the serving, EVERYTHING!


P.S. We didn't bring our camera because we a slackers and never think about those things so all the pictures you will get are going to be coming from our phones! Enjoy and happy reading! :)

Happy Birthday

Congratulations Garon!! You have made it to a Quarter of a Century!! :) 

Happy Birthday Garon! I hope this day is fill with much joy and laughter!  You are an amazing person and I am so happy to be here with you to celebrate.  

You are the best there is out there! :)

A Decision Has Been Made

Well, I appreciate you all for your input.  I have made a decision and I had to go with my gut on this one.  This is the one! 

I am getting pretty excited!!

Here is a little exciting side note for you!  Garon felt the baby move last night!! He got so excited and it was great.  I am so blessed.

Help Please

I am going to attach a few pictures of some crib bedding that I have been looking at.  I need help though.  I "LIKE" all of them and there are a few that I "LOVE".  Go ahead and leave you opinion and I will take all into consideration.

This has been my favorite all along and I am not sure why.  It is listed in the neutral section of the stores but I don't know.  I do really like it every time I look at it.

This next one I would have to say is my second favorite because it says Girl but it doesn't shout out PINK.

This next two are both sets that I like but I just haven't found a love for them.  I almost settled for the pink and brown one but I don't want to get something unless it is IT. 

If you don't mind, let me know what you think.  I am simple yet like the fun.

Thanks! :-)

Friday!

It is crazy to think that today is Friday already!  This week has gone by rather quickly but I must say that I am pretty excited for Friday.  I have marvelous plans for today, some may or may not happen but some of them have too.  For starters I will be taking a shower and then I was considering a possible pedicure.  At 11:30 today I am going to meet my cousin for lunch which I am super excited about.  We live a short 30 minutes from each other yet we barely get to see each other.  Following lunch I will be headed back home to "clean house".  My cleaning today will entail folding, washing, drying, folding, folding, folding, and putting away laundry.  Vacuum over the carpets.  Unload and load the dishwasher, and sweep and mop the kitchen floor.  I think it will be a rather productive day.  I hope it all gets done becuse this evening we have some friends coming over to watch a movie and two of the cutest girls ever will be staying with us.  

Garon is getting his fair share of practice time in these days, it is kind of cute.  

Since it is Friday that means we are just a few short days away from his PARTY which means I have to finish getting that all planned out.  We are doing a hot dog/hamburger cook out.  We would do it at our house but my Parent's house will hold everyone a little better.  I don't mind the coziness but I think there are some that do.  All in all it shall be a wonderful weekend and I am ready for it.  

A little further down the line, a week from today we will be making a trip to TX for an entire week!!!  We are pretty stoked about this.  We were kind of worried about being gone for the whole week but we have been blessed yet again and it all worked out so we are on!  The main reason we wanted to go for the whole week is because we probably won't be able to get back down there until after the baby has arrived and it would still be a few months after that before we were able to go.  I have a strange feeling that our lives are about to get really busy but I am oh so happy for it.  Times have been trying but at the same time we have learned many lessons and have received so many blessings.  

So to you from me: HAPPY FRIDAY!!! 

Much Better

Okay, so the previous post was a total release of frustration.  I want to let you all know that there is no need to worry, everything worked out and I am much better.  I just had a small trial in patience, understanding, and gratitude.   I am so thankful for the many blessings in my life and for the love and support we continually get from our loving friends and family.  You are all the best and we couldn't do it without you! :)  It is late so I should probably head off to bed but I just wanted to put it out there that my hormone rage has calmed and all is well in the Tidwell home!!

Tears

Warning: There is some venting ahead!
 
TEAR /tɪər/ Show Sp

–noun

1.  a drop of the saline, watery fluid continually secreted by the lacrimal glands between the surface of the eye    and the eyelid, serving to moisten and lubricate these parts and keep them clear of foreign particles.

2.  this fluid appearing in or flowing from the eye as the result of emotion, esp. grief.

Okay, now that is out of the way, can you take a guess at what is going on?  

I know I am pregnant and I know that I am expected to be emotional but I cried for what seemed all day yesterday.  Some stuff was worth it, other things not so much.  I was a little emotional before I got pregnant but there are certain days now that it just hits me and it won't go away.

This has been a tough week (well, it started off GREAT and then it got hard).  Monday was the best day of my week, we were able to go to the doctor and see our little girl on screen and see/hear the heart beat.  It is amazing and I get excited thinking about it, I also get tears occasionally but these are the good ones, the ones that give me a little hope.

Tuesday things were still pretty good, not much to complain about.  I was given a task to do at work (mind you, my hours have continued to be cut back and I am no cleaning the school in the evenings after hours).  The task I was given wasn't so much in the "cleaning" department but at the same time it was, I was helping the front desk get some files in order and clean out the old ones, etc. I wasn't very tired this particular night and I ended up staying until about 2:30 in the morning.  I got home and got in bed about 3:00.  Ok, no big deal, I could handle that.  Wednesday, I get up and am getting things done around the house and I go into work at 2:00 p.m. (instead of the normal 3:00) because I was trying to get this task accomplished so I could move on to the other things that needed to be done.  I stayed until 11:00 p.m. and got everything just about done.  Again, no big deal.  Thursday, this is where things got hard and I began to loose it.  I get to work at the normal 3:00 and get the assigned task accomplished within 45 minutes.  Yeah! Go me!  Well, that is not exactly the reaction I got.  I pretty much got told that everything I just did was a waste of time and energy because now there is no need for the charts that they are all probably just going to be tossed and there are other things I could have better spent my time on....WHAT!!?!?!?  

I held myself together through all that and got things to where I could walk away from them without leaving the front person in a bind.  I was off to start "cleaning".  Low and behold there is no spray bottle in the back for the bathroom cleaner.  I try to go find some and made the mistake of asking if anybody knew where it was.  At this point I was asked by person A:

Person A: "How many hours have you worked this week?"

Me: "Well, I did  9 hours on Tuesday and 8.5 hours on Wed and 1 hour today so far."

Person A: "Go home, I can't afford to pay you anymore this week.  You can come back Monday"

In my mind I was like "WHAT THE HECK???"  At this point I walked away because I could totally feel my face getting red and my eyes swelling up and that is when all the tears began to flow.  These weren't exactly the same tears that I had talked about earlier, these were tears of anger, heartache, and frustration.  I get stuff put away, go to the bathroom (completely lost all control in there) wiped my face off, tried to cool down, walked out and said bye.  At this point I hear Person B say "Is she okay?"  I turned around and said "I am fine" and just kept on walking towards the door.

Am I fine? No, I am not fine.  All I could think about was how are we going to pay our bills over the next two weeks, what I am going to do about this or that?  I got in the car and sent a txt to Garon letting him know I was on my way home and that I was having a breakdown.  I didn't want to bother him with it too much because he was in class and all that stuff so I told him what had happened and said we could talk about it later.  I was sobbing the entire time I wrote the txt, the whole drive home, and then I sat on the couch and cried more.  

I pulled myself together enough that I was able to kneel in prayer and talk with my Father in Heaven which did give me a little comfort.  A good friend once told me that the Lord never leads us this far down a path and then just leaves us there alone to figure it out.   

Garon made it home about 5:30 give or take a few and we sat and talked and I cried some more and was just at a loss.  We are good people (at least we are striving to be) and we just don't understand why this stuff keeps happening to us.  We have continuously filled out applications, we have both had interviews, we are doing all we can at this point.  All I am asking for at this point is for another 4 months of understanding, of work, of working full time so we can pay our bills and get ahead just a little before the baby comes.  I know things happen for a reason and we are given trials to build our character and test our faith but there is only so much I can take at this point and I feel as though I might fall.  What have I done, or what haven't I done that I need to do.  

I have so much to be grateful for, I have been tremendously blessed and I need to not take those things for granted.  I am thankful for a roof over my head and food in the pantry (even though we did go into debt getting it) and sound vehicles to drive.  I am thankful for my Savior and the sacrifices He has made and the example He set.  I strive to follow that example and do the right thing.  A good friend of mine had a blog post about judging others and it had a great impact on me this morning.  I try extremely hard to not judge those around me and to give everyone a fair, equal chance, most of the time more than one but sometimes, such as now, I feel as though I am the one being trodden underfoot and somehow I have to figure out how to pull myself up.

Needless to say, it has been a week of tears.  Some have been good and some have been not so good but none the less I continue to push forward and make the best out of what I can.  This time will pass and all will be well.  Thank you for reading and I am sorry for the downer, I feel a little better getting a part of this off my chest.

Jillian Grace

We did a poll, we took the pictures and the outcome is a little Jillian Grace Tidwell. We are pretty excited about this one. She looks healthy and has a strong heart beat of around 154. We didn't get a picture on the disc that shows it to be a girl but as far as the eye could see there were no parts sticking out.

We have a picture of her face, we were even able to see her brain during the ultrasound, it was pretty neat.

Garon requested this particular picture. She was taking after her mother in the fact that she had her hands up by her face not wanting to take a picture, she was done at this point in the game!

She finally decided to stretch out a little bit. She spent most of the ultrasound hour curled up in a little ball. It was so awesome to see her move and wiggle, she was even trying to talk to us at one point.

All in all everything looks great. Our due date continues to be July 14, 2010.